Friday, September 24, 2010

Thao Nguyen Xanh- Sad Romance

Thao Nguyen Xanh - Sad Romance
            A Music Sheet/ Score of Sad Romance by Thao Nguyen Xinh.
This was also used for Final Fantasy X and was labeled as "Sad Violin" which it became commonly known as through the widespread of youtube videos.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Want to 'Ki Siao'

My Sejarah Project!!!! I don't think I have enough time to finish it tonight... What should I do???

Thursday, July 29, 2010

I Wonder..

I wonder if this was a mistake.
Trusting you four again.
It seems that I was wrong.
Today when I asked for help,
one of you pushed me away with the same reason like the other one.
I won't reveal your names,
but you left me disappointed today.
Out of you four,
only A helped me the most.

I don't know if what I did was right.
Maybe I'm selfish.
Maybe I'm thoughtless.
I don't know what I did to receive this kind of treatment.
I'm sorry for trusting you three.
B, you left me feeling disappointed.

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear, a thousand ,asks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and loneliness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.


Excerpt from 'Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul'

Ps. Does this poem sounds like me??

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Musical Sunday #1



Tour de Japon - Not Alone (Final Fantasy IX)

              From today onwards, I will always post a music video on Sunday and make reviews about it. Of course there will be others not concerning music. But Sunday will be an official day where I put in music videos.
               This song or rather, piece is titled 'Not Alone' which is composed by Nobuo Uematsu. It is one of my favorites among the other pieces composed by him.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Falling into a pit of Depression

Only here can I express my true feelings.
I feel very tired every time school ends.
I feel sad every time I return home.
The problem?

I'm becoming an agony aunt.
Every time someone tells me about their problems,
They expect me to solve them.
They expect me to give them advices.
Sometimes, they just want somebody to listen to their thoughts.
I don't know how to answer for fear of giving them what they do not seek.
But every time I oblige.
I don't know why.
But it's becoming frequent everyday.

The reason I'm sad is because I tend to take some of their worries back.
Their fear,
Their sadness.
Evey time I lie in bed,
I keep wondering if it would happen to me.

Sometimes, it is not because of them.
The energy I need to take care of the class.
Every time I step in recharge,
No sooner than after one period it starts depleting.
I wanted to stop because I can't stand it anymore.
I can't take the pressure.
I don't want to let you guys down,
That's why I continued the thorny path.
I know you guys don't want to change a new monitor,
Because you are used with me.
I help you with whatever I have.
My connections with other students.
My connections with the other teachers.

But I'm changing,
I don't know if I can keep this up anymore.
I don't have enough faith in myself anymore.
Everyday I walk in,
WHAM
your needs smack into me,
Demanding it to be solved.
What am I?
Some scullery maid?
A person who have to walk around the school just so you could get your things done in time?
I have had enough.

No matter how the going gets tough I'm not going to soften one bit.
Don't blame me for lack of responsibility.
I don't want to be the 'kind' and 'caring' I used to be.
I'm sorry.