Thao Nguyen Xanh- Sad Romance

Thao Nguyen Xanh - Sad Romance
            A Music Sheet/ Score of Sad Romance by Thao Nguyen Xinh.
This was also used for Final Fantasy X and was labeled as "Sad Violin" which it became commonly known as through the widespread of youtube videos.

Want to 'Ki Siao'

My Sejarah Project!!!! I don't think I have enough time to finish it tonight... What should I do???

I Wonder..

I wonder if this was a mistake.
Trusting you four again.
It seems that I was wrong.
Today when I asked for help,
one of you pushed me away with the same reason like the other one.
I won't reveal your names,
but you left me disappointed today.
Out of you four,
only A helped me the most.

I don't know if what I did was right.
Maybe I'm selfish.
Maybe I'm thoughtless.
I don't know what I did to receive this kind of treatment.
I'm sorry for trusting you three.
B, you left me feeling disappointed.

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear, a thousand ,asks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and loneliness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.


Excerpt from 'Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul'

Ps. Does this poem sounds like me??

Musical Sunday #1

Tour de Japon - Not Alone (Final Fantasy IX)

              From today onwards, I will always post a music video on Sunday and make reviews about it. Of course there will be others not concerning music. But Sunday will be an official day where I put in music videos.
               This song or rather, piece is titled 'Not Alone' which is composed by Nobuo Uematsu. It is one of my favorites among the other pieces composed by him.

Falling into a pit of Depression

Only here can I express my true feelings.

I feel very tired every time school ends.

I feel sad every time I return home.

The problem?

I'm becoming an agony aunt.

Every time someone tells me about their problems,

They expect me to solve them.

They expect me to give them advices.

Sometimes, they just want somebody to listen to their thoughts.

I don't know how to answer for fear of giving them what they do not seek.

But every time I oblige.

I don't know why.

But it's becoming frequent everyday.

The reason I'm sad is because I tend to take some of their worries back.

Their fear,

Their sadness.

Evey time I lie in bed,

I keep wondering if it would happen to me.

Sometimes, it is not because of them.

The energy I need to take care of the class.

Every time I step in recharge,

No sooner than after one period it starts depleting.

I wanted to stop because I can't stand it anymore.

I can't take the pressure.

I don't want to let you guys down,

That's why I continued the thorny path.

I know you guys don't want to change a new monitor,

Because you are used with me.

I help you with whatever I have.

My connections with other students.

My connections with the other teachers.

But I'm changing,

I don't know if I can keep this up anymore.

I don't have enough faith in myself anymore.

Everyday I walk in,

WHAM

your needs smack into me,

Demanding it to be solved.

What am I?

Some scullery maid?

A person who have to walk around the school just so you could get your things done in time?

I have had enough.

No matter how the going gets tough I'm not going to soften one bit.

Don't blame me for lack of responsibility.

I don't want to be the 'kind' and 'caring' I used to be.

I'm sorry.

What's Happening To Me?

I came home tired and depressed today.
What is happening to me?
These few days,
I feel that I'm not like myself anymore.
Every time I come home I bring negative emotions back.
I rarely talk at home,
Unless when spoken to.
Sometimes I can't sleep at night.
Friends keep asking why do I look so emo.
I don't know how to answer them.
I couldn't possibly tell them my reason and expect them to understand right?

I can't tolerate you guyz

Really, ever since i became the head of this class,
It was like a nightmare for me.
Especially your attitudes.
I can't stand them anymore.

Every time some of you get scolded by the teacher,
I get angry.
Then,
One of you will ask me..
Why angry?
Why?
Because you guys are my classmates.
THAT's WHY!!

Really,
Sometimes meeting you guys seems like a pain in my ass.
I really don't feel like 'taking care' of you guys.
I wasted so much time and money for 2A.
I even get headaches for helping to solve your problems.
It's not like I have enough problems right?

After next week,
I'm going to change my attitude.
And DON'T be angry towards me.
B'cos U really don't want to get on my nerves.

Last Concert

Yesterday was my last concert with the form fives,
I didn't think I would say this but,
I'll miss them...
T.T

Er hu group gave ZF a present.
Nothing big though..
Then,
When I was in the car,
He phoned me n say he very gam dong...

Now I'm wondering if th present me n the cuteness is going to give him will make him cry...
          
P.s That is what the cuteness wish for not me..

Hurt

Do you guys know what it's like to be in the middle?
No, I don't think so.
Every time I'm being used just for UG.
Although I don't like it,
I just go with the flow.
But I can't stand being used.
Know this once,
Then you better know this twice,
I can't, won't stand being used.

Paramore: Misery Business [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Somebody in this video reminds of somebody. Well, I won't say who but the music is one of my favorites.

Misery Business, Paramore

Lyrics:
I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth
I waited eight long months
Before she set him free
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
Cos I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Cos God it just feels so,
It feels so good
Second chances they don't even matter ,
people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more. I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passin' up, now look this way
Well there's a million other girls who does it just like you
Looking innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse.

Whoa, I never meant to brag 

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

just steal it all away from you now

But God does it feel so good

Cos I got him where I want him right now

And if you could then you know you would

Cos God it just feels so,

It feels so good

I watched his wildest dream come true 

Not one of them involving you

Just watch my wildest dreams come true

Not one of them involving.

Whoa, I never meant to brag 

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, I never meant to brag 

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

just steal it all away from you now

But God does it feel so good

Cos I got him where I want him now

And if you could then you know you would

Cos God it just feels so,

It feels so good

A PASS?!

             I can't believe it, I got a pass for my Grade 8 examination. Damn that examiner. Well, damn me too for not being able to get use to having an exam in an environment that is different than the one that I'm used to. 60 was the passing mark and I got 66, just 4 marks short to get merit. Argh I'm still brooding over this subject. Not to forget, my exam results are coming out next week. I better pray real hard I'll get better results.

WAKA WAKA-SHAKIRA this time for africa MUSIC VIDEO

The new & official World cup song.

Holidayz

Sorry for taking such a long time to upload my pictures from the 'Orang Asli' holiday in Perak.

Well, the house behind me is just a model house..

Me n mum helpin 2 promote d hotel.( My face still steam steam...)

Scenery of the lake.

Ha ha.. Steaming pao..

The small harbor.

Joe Hisaishi live concert Totoro tunnel of wind

I luv this song.. I don't know why but the it calms me down...

I Hate Them

Very peik cheik with them..

Everything I do is always wrong and nothing right.

Den,

With the violin exam coming,

Ko ka cham..

" U think u very clever always decide by urself bla bla...."

So what?

This is my life!!

Not ur's!!

Peik cheik with life

本来，音乐会过后，

还以为可以轻轻松松过日子

谁知

更多问题出现了

为了你们这几个

要做中间人

我真的是

不知该怎么办

还有

2A班越来越糟糕了

难道我几天不在

就变成这么不systematic了吗

看来Jagung，

你的好友的地狱般的生活

也开始了

I'm Sorry..

I'm sorry.. I don't mean to blame you guys, but knowing y'all is just my undoing. I admire you guys too much until I ...

Maybe you won't understand my meaning. Nobody ever understands me..

Frustrated

I'm so f***ing pissed off,

What does he think I am?

Some kind of dog?

A little fella who wags it's tail as soon as it is ordered?

Bah!

I have enough of it,

Treat me however you see fit,

But don't get disappointed in the future.

忍不住了...

忍不住了,

他，

新生们，

我到底要忍到多久?!

好闷...

今天sia sui死...写错字, LLL 师也要宣布出来....

更sia sui的是，慧欣说我暴力狂啊!!!

还不是为了她而已...

你呀

说什么考虑

都是假的

你根本就是把我当成3岁小孩子看待一样...

可怜没药救...

这个不能，

那个不能，

难道你们要把我当成木偶看待吗?

我不是小孩子了.

到时候你们清醒了好不好?

突然间觉得她好可怜,

可是大众一定不赞成我的想法，

对吧?

与他们的时间好短啊...

哇，今天的彩排对我来说我觉得自己很烂叻... ‘水’的这首歌我根本就是乱来一场... Haizz,还有winter对我这个‘笨笨’来说真的是很快，我根本就是跟不到拍子... 我觉得这个假期虽然是过得很快，可是我的自觉告诉我，我和我的二胡朋友们之间的距离拉近了很多.尤其是我和慧欣还有可爱的俊昌(请不要误会哦)，真的是好高兴啊!可是想到志峰，古卡，丽年这些我在短短的时间内认识而是满靠近的旧生即将在这年离开我们我觉得好伤心.人生是有好有坏，有喜有愁，根本就是不能避免的事.我必须把与他们的美好时光记在心里，永远忘不掉.

新的一个

在这个时候在从新来过正是麻烦。可是我又能做什么呢? 旧的哪一个恐怕已经被我遗弃了... 就像我即将在未来为了别人而遗弃自己一样。不懂我在说什么吧? 呵呵... 那，亲爱得读者们， 你们就必须读下去啦。不然就不知道我到底想发表的意思啦..